when was my last entry? i could barely remember when it was.

my life hasn't changed a bit except that i gained weight and i am moon-faced because i have been taking steroids for almost three months already. also, i think i am more matured and i have a deeper personal relationship with God and i am more appreciative of the blessings--my family, relatives and friends.

honestly, i don't have any insecurities but right now i am so insecure of the way i look--my tummy is bloated and so is my face and for somebody who has a 23-in waist line and very high cheekbones and strong jaw-line and seeing it all gone because of the medicine....add to it a lot of pimples which you usually don't have...who wouldn't be insecure?it's like waking up with a different face and body!

i have been battling not only with my illness but with the effects of the medicine---from having difficulty walking because of knee pains to having sensitive teeth....but then again, i am thankful to God because i am still alive and He has sent intruments that make me strong and who help me to let the sun shine in.